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bdesigurl08
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All the things I wish I could tell you…
All the things I want to tell you…
All the things I can’t tell you…
I wish you realized
Just how I feel about you.
I wish you knew how many nights I’ve stayed awake,
Thinking about you.
If you only felt the pain I feel.
If you only saw how I suffer.
To be so deeply in…What? Love?
How do I know what love is?
All I know is that every single moment
Of every single day,
All I can think about is you.
All I know is that you are my inspiration,
My passion, my devotion.
You are always there for me-
Helping me all the way…
Helping me make my decisions,
Supporting me in tough times,
Giving me a shoulder to cry on,
And a friend when I honestly need one.
You are always ready to listen
To my every problem (big or small),
To share things, personal things,
That you wouldn’t share with anyone else,
To catch me every time I fall
And put me back on my feet.
You are always ready to read my 2-3 page long e-mails
And then answer back in an equally one
No matter how tired or beat you are.
Whenever I don’t know what to do,
I think of you.
I hear your voice telling me,
“Don't listen to me or anyone else, just yourself.”
Sometimes, it seems to me
As if you are a dream of mine,
Accidentally places in this cold reality,
A reality where you can feel
But go no further than that.
I just wish that you were here,
Sitting right next to me,
For just a moment,
Going through exactly what I am going through right now.
Jealousy is a word that shows up in my dictionary constantly.
Jealousy of those who can admit their feelings
With nothing to block their way.
Jealousy for those who have felt the completeness of life.
Jealousy for those who have someone,
A special someone,
Whom they can call their own.
And jealousy for those who have never felt the pain
That became so familiar to me
Since the day I met you.
I wish things didn’t have to be this way.
I wish I could just turn away from all responsibility
As a daughter, as a sister, as a friend.
I wish I could become yours,
Once and for all.
But I can’t
And that is all part of life.
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