.:[4 pm and you.]:.:General Stories

Its 4 pm in the evening. As i seat myself on the kitchen table for a late, lonesome lunch, waiting for my wheat toast to pop out..my mind's filled with
a thousand thoughts of you..
I smile. You can always make me smile and go weak in the knees. What are you.. God of Love?
How can you possibly have this power over me? Its crazy.
Its so quiet and its so lonely. I hear the wind whispering my name, calling me.
I plead..do not disturb..let me be. Let me drown in your intoxication. The spell you have me under..

I close my eyes without realizing..and give in. I can see you.. feel your closeness, your warmth, your breath on my face, your touch..
have mercy. Don't kill me, I'm going crazy.
My love, i plead..don't test me further. Just simply and bluntly, i ask..will you come closer already?
Have you the faintest idea about my craving for you?
My heart, my body, my soul..aches for your loving and tender arms wrapped around my cold, shivering, lonely self.
Will you erase this distance tonight?
I snap back to my senses with the buzz of the toaster. I'm no longer hungry. Atleast not for toast.
I long for you.

I gather myself up, and decide on a stroll. Strong winds burn my face, mocking me as if. I lower my gaze and keep walking.
With every step i take, i chant your name. Your lovely name..an endearment to my lips.
And for some absurd reason my past dominates my thoughts for the briefest moment. Just what was he?
An imposting wretch? a liar? pretender? Just how fake was everything?
I never longed for him, as i long for you.. I never was crazy about him, like i go crazy for you..
He never touched my soul even though he would try. It never was meant to be. It's you who was made for me.

I sometimes wonder..if this thing we have..our love..is this for real? I cant seem to take it, digest it. For its too good to be true.
I'm afraid of accepting what you offer, afraid that i might lose it. Lose you..
No, for I'd lose myself. Coz you are me.
You've stirred inside of me, feelings I never knew even existed. You make me believe in fairytales again. And you make me feel so..content, whole,
complete, but most of all, you make me feel like i am all yours to keep. And that is the most precious feeling i have ever felt.
Your words, your voice, still send shivers down my spine, making my heart beat like it was being chased after with a chainsaw..
I wonder how many people have ever felt like this? Hardly.

You make me believe that love is no mere word..that its a bundle of such deep emotions that emancipates our hearts from the rest of the world.
Like nothing else matters when you are around..
How can i even begin to tell you what you mean to me? I'd give up myself for you.
I never imagined anything would mean to me more than my life. I feared death, and then you came along..
And now the only fear i know that exists is the fear of losing you.

My mind plays tricks with me..It tells me just how elusive this whole thing is. But my heart.
My heart begs to differ. It pleads, it believes..or rather, it knows..that you are real..
You are as real as the morning sun, the pouring rain..and as real as life itself.

I can't pretend anymore.. can't pretend that this distance doesn't bother me..It does, and it hurts.
It hurts to know that I can't be with you when i want to. Hurts to know that I still just have to imagine the feeling of my fingers entwined with
yours, and our gaze locked with each other. Its hard to take, hard to accept. But.
You..you are a very very shrewd, a very cunning lover indeed. You know magic like noone else knows.
Your spell keeps me bound to you at all times. You can make my heart melt and give me wings just by saying I Love You.
Those words..sigh. And it makes me feel like the distance between us was never there to begin with. Everything seems shrewdly bona fide.

I suddenly feel so alive. I hear the birds chirp and squeak..I see around me, so much to be thankful for. Its you that makes me feel like that.
And so I can't help but worry about losing something that makes me feel so alive.
I breathe because of you, my love. If you were not with me, i'd rather not live now.

Today is not the first time that thoughts of you have put me in such a frenzy. Not the first time that my heart has skipped beats just thinking about you.
You've had this effect on me ever since day 1...and i'm amazed, if not shocked..at how strong my feelings for you have become with time.
And this is only the beginning right? We have our entire lives to spend with each other. Where i'd finally be looking into your eyes and be holding
your hand and facing the world in a whole new light, feeling like i've just won an oscar.
Only, i'd have won more than an oscar. I'd have won you. The only reason ..and the only purpose of my life. In fact, you are my life.
I slowly hum Joe Jonas under my breath.. You're the voice i hear inside my head..the reason that i'm living..You're the missing piece i need..and the song inside of me..

Smiling sheepishly, i turn around towards home.
Home..just temporarily. For my home is you. Being in the cradle of your arms is where i would really feel like home. Somewhere i'm meant to be,
somewhere i belong.
I reach and push open the gates with a new perspective. Yes, i am lonely. But not for long, certainly not for long. I'm going to be with the one person
who makes me happier than anyone else ever could. And very soon I'll have everything. Coz you are my everything.
So, well..step out of my way..you can't bother me today..
for I'm gonna be fine soon..
..I'm gonna be home soon.