Hi friends this is a letter written for someone..
I know this it too long but its very touching u all must read it..
Hope u will like it..
Dear *****,
Yesterday someone asked me if I know you, a million of different thoughts, painful memories, broken dreams flashed through my mind, and I whispered… “not anymore”.
When I look back I always wonder what is it that went wrong. Where did we make that critical mistake? Was I not good enough? Was I not caring enough? Not loving enough?
I never asked for much, at least I think so… Can you tell me if I was wrong? I just wanted to be the girl you talk about, the only one you couldn’t live without… to be the one who makes your heart beat crazy. And I know I was. So when did it happen that I stopped being that girl?
When is that moment that changed everything for you? For us? The moment when you realized you had stopped loving me? The moment when you crashed each one of our dreams… dreams of being together, dreams of being happy, dreams of being US? Do you remember that moment? Can you take my hand and point with it to the date when everything changed? Can you? Will you? Do you want to?
And for how long after that day, that moment, we still have tried to hold on to it so tight, so desperate, so “together”. Maybe because we both still had this fear that something so beautiful like we had had won’t happen twice. And maybe it won’t. But for the sake of both of us I still do hope it will.
You know, one of the saddest things in life is to love someone who used to love you. And now I do not really know what actually hurts more: thinking that I should hate you or knowing that I don’t. But what really hurts more than losing you is knowing that you just walked away without ever looking back. No word, no smile, no explanations. You just erased me. You erased us, as if we had never existed.
I had never known before how hard it is to let go of someone. Or rather to let go of something which once was not a part of your life, but which actually WAS your life. Because if you let go of life, what does remain there? And can you let go of something completely? Have you? Could you? Do you still have memories? Do you still go to places where we were together? Do you meet with friends who know both of us? Do they ask you about me like they ask me about you? What do you tell them? If anything? Do you remember things like they used to be? Or did you manage to erase everything? If you did, teach me how to do this, because maybe… but just maybe… I would want to erase them too.
Because maybe I don’t want to cry anymore at nights. And maybe I don’t want to think about you anymore. And I don’t want to remember… don’t want to feel… don’t want to wonder… I just don’t want. But I can’t help it. Can you? Did you? Just let me know HOW? Though probably more than HOW I want to know WHY…
I would have given you the world if you had given me the chance. But then… Some dreams weren’t meant to come true….I learned that from you.
Remember one day you said we shouldn’t say “I love you” when we don’t mean it, because when we mean it what will we say? So now I say “I love you”… but you are allowed to skip the replying part, else what will you say when you mean it?
Not yours anymore,
*****
Hope one day that boy reads this letter for whom its written..
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