Mera naam "K@HIN@@R" kyo rkha gya....? A story..

"...MERI KALPNA,MERI CHAHAT HO TUM,
MERE NAJM KI ALFAAJ HO TUM...
TERE AANE KI AAHAT HOTI HAI AISI,KI JAISE BAHAAR KA AAGAAZ HO...
TERA NOOR CHA GYA MUJH PR IS QADAR,
JMI PE BIKHRA JAISE AAFTAAB HO...
...TUM CHAAND NHI,JISKI DUNIYA DIWANI HAI,
PHOOLO'N ME CHIPE SHABNM KI TRAH TUM PAAK HO...
USI SHIDDAT SE TALASHA HAI TUJHE,
JAISE VIRANI KO MEHFILO'N KI TALASH HO..."
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GOD MADE YOU,
FOR ME
YOU ARE MINE..!!!
...suno,
naraaz mt ho jana mujhse..maine jo mehsoos kia..wo likh dia..
Kal tumhare jawaab ka intjaar rhega...
Ok..take care Gudia.
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Aaj mai school se laut rhi thi tb aapne mujhe SLAME BOOK dia..
Usme aapne jo kuch b likha hai use mai itni baar pdh chuki hun ki mujhe sari baten lfj ba lfj yaad ho gai'n hain Saji..!
Aur is wqt mai ye sari bate'n apni diary me likh rhi hun...
Kitna mja aayega na jb hm ye diary sath sath pdhenge...
Apne purane dino ko yaad krke kitna mza aayega na??
1:30 ho rhe hain...ab mujhe so jana chahiye na?
Aakhir kl aapko jawaab b to dena hai...
GUD NYT JANAAB

OCTOBER/23/2006
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"...aap mujhse pyar krte hain,mgar mai aapko kl b apna dost maanti thi...aur aaj b maanti hun...
Ho skta hai ki jindgi k kisi lmhe me mujhe aapse pyar ho jaye...mgar tb tk aapko intjaar krna pdega....
Btaiye us pl ka intjaar kr payenge Saaji?"
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.....O GOD! Ye seriously dialog bahut muskil se bol pai thi aaj mai aapse!
Pta hai 50 baar rehersal kia tha mene..!
Aur aap...! Aap to kitne disturb ho gye they Saaji...
Aisa lg rha tha ki jaise koi cheej achank chin gyi ho aapse...kitni muskil se aapne kaha tha ki,"THEEK HAI GUDIA,MAI JAROOR INTJAAR KARUNGA..."
Aap bahut upset ho gye they.
Mai aapko upset nhi krna chahti thi mgar kya karun?
Aapko tng krne me bda mza aata hai mujhe...wrna dil to chahta tha ki aapke chahat k jwaab me wo sb kuch keh dun jo mene aapke liye bahut pehle se hi is diary me likh rkha hai...
Lekin aise kaise bta deti aaj??
Maine soch rkha hai ki apne pyar ka ikraar aapke birthday pe hi krungi...2 mhine baad...!!
In 2 mahino me aapko ji bhar k sta lun..kyoki uske baad to aap hi staya karenge mujhe...
Aap to abhi se hi itne bigde ho ki njar mila k baat krna muskil ho gya hai..
Baad me to......ufff!!
Ok..gud nyt

NOVEMBER/5/2006
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"....tumhare paas cricket khelne aur ptang udane k alava koi aur kaam nhi hai kya??
...jb dekho tb,apne colony k sare baccho'n ko ikattha krke unke sath khelti rehti ho...
Pagal ldki..!! 4 mhine baad jo board exam hai...uski kuch fikr hai tumhe??
...agar Maths me dictinction nhi lia...to fir mai choklate dena bnd kr doonga...smjhi!!"
...aaj jb aapne pehli baar mujhe daanta tb mujhe smjh me aaya ki aapke frnds aapko 'hard stone' kyo kehte hain?
Chlo theek hai ki khelne k liye mna kr dia...mgar ye kya mjaak hai ki
"gudia..maths me dictinction lana."
mujhe math vaith accha nhi lgta...paas marks le aaun isme vhi bahut hai mere liye....
...ab ja rhi hun aaraam se sone...mere exam ka tension aap hi jhelo.
Gud nyt.

DECEMBER/23/2006
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Aaj aapne call kr k mujhe milne k liye bulaya...mgar mai nhi aa ski...
"kaise aaun Saji! Ghar pe bahut mehmaan aaye hue hain...itna sara kaam hai..mumma ko akele kaise chor dun?"
ye bat jb mene aapse phone pe kahi to aap na jane kyo chidh gye aur bdi aasani se keh dia ki...
"gudia,tum hmesa yhi krti ho..meri hr baat ko reject kr dena tumhe bahut accha lgta hai na?
Meri hr khwahis ko tum apne jid tle raund deti ho...
Yaad hai?...baris k mausm me school se laut te wqt jb b kbi mene tumse kaha ki,"AAO GUDIA.,KUCH PL BARISH ME BHEEGEN..." to tumhara jawaab hota hai,"barish me bheegna!! Chi!
Itni kichd ho jati hai sdak pe..usme bevkoofo ki trah bheegte hue paidal chlo...tumne b na Shaji,fijool k sauk paal rkhe hain..!"
kbhi jo mai kehta ki,"GUDIA, BLACK COLOR PEHNA KARO..MERA FAV. HAI"
To tumhara jawaab hota hai,"O GOD! Wo bhooto wala color pehn k mai ekdm chudail lgungi...mujhe nhi pehnna!"
....aur aaj jbki pehli baar maine call krke tumhe milne k liye bulaya to b tumne saaf saaf mna kr dia...
Mai ghar ja rha hun aaj..is baar lautne me 3-4 din lg jayenge...aur tumhe to pta hi hai ki tumhare bagair mujhe apni dhadkne rukti hui si mehsoos hoti hain...
So!...tumhe dekhkr jana chahta tha...
Mgar nhi...tum to....."
....aap sayad aage b kuch kehna chahte they mgar mamma aa gai'n aur maine call cut kr dia..
Aap naraaz hokar chle gye..khair koi bat nhi...
Is baar jb aap laut k aayenge to ek bdi khusi aapka intjaar kr rhi hogi...
Aur mai ykeen se keh skti hun ki ye khusi aapki hr khusi se bdh kr hogi.
Filhaal to naraaz hi rhiye..kyoki mujhe pta hai ki aapki ye naraazgi bs kuch hi plon ki hai....
But don't worry..!
Is baar mai khud aapko mnaungi.
Gud nyt.

i'm also listening. comments after the end..
Interesting..lovely style..carry on.

DECEMBER/28/2006
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Abhi abhi hospital se lauti hun...
Anshika ki tbiyat kharaab ho gai thi achank...
Uske hostel ki wordon ne btaya ki kl raat wo achank hi behos ho gai thi...
...na jane kyo aaj kl meri jindgi me kuch b accha nhi ho rha...ek to aap naraaz hain aur ooper se ANSHIKA ki ye halat..!
Ye to accha hua ki ab wo bilkul theek hai...
...pta hai Shaji..2 bj gya mgar aaj mujhe bilkul b nind nhi aa rhi...!
Shayad aap b jg rhe hain..
Hai na..?

JANUARY/2/2007
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...aapka birthday gujar gya aur nya saal bhi...!
Aapko yaad hai Shajarf...pichle 'NEW YEAR' pe aapne mujhse vada kia tha ki aane wala hr nya saal aap mere sath celebrate krenge...mgar nhi!!
Aap to itne naraaz hain ki wapas hi nhi aa rhe...
Kya mai aapko bilkul b yaad nhi aati..?? Ya fir koi jaruri kaam pd gya hai wahaa'n..??
Km se km ek call to kr dijiye...taki mere bekaraar dil ko jra sa qaraar aa jaye...
Miss u very very very much...

thodi si tareef. jaroori  hai.
U R D best 'story teller'