Toota hua dil

Main toot gaya hoon
toot ta hi rahta hoon
lekin tootna kaun chahta hai
harna kaun chahta hai
toot kar phir se khara hona
her koi ke koshish hoti hai
lekin toote hue se
sakaratmak baatein ki apeksha
toote ko aur tor dena
jaisa hi hai
her baar hum aap ko
apni antim takat samajhte hai
isi lie to baar baar aap se sampark saadhte hai
magar ab aap badal gaye hai
aap toote hue dost ko gale nahi lagate
jaroori bhi hai
kyunki hara hua khilari
kabhi aap ke jeet ka buniyad nahi ho sakta

hum toote
jhurna chaha
aap ko sampark kiya
bar bar kiya
aap ko nakartmak laga
meri baatien
jo aap ko pasand nahi
mai aur toota
mere andar ki taraf aur badhi
aur phir bar bar phone kiya
aap baar baar paresan hue
aur hum toot te hi chale gaye
ye sil sila chalta hi raha
phir ek dar sa laga
jaise gahri nind ke sapne ki beech aankhe achank se khul gayee ho
kahi is tarah toot ke bhikar na jaaye
ki lakh chah kar bhi
joot na paayen
ish tarah to mai apna hi nuksaan kar raha hoon


ab khud ko jaana
pahle bhi mai sirf apne baare me socha
aur ab bhi
unpe kya biti hogi
kabhi janna nahi chaha
mann ne hamesha yehi kaha
use aapki parwah nahi
aur mai man gaya